Get Thee Behind Me, Anxiety

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From Sapling Press

On Monday, at a still unspecified time of day, I’m having surgery. I am nervous. I am nervous, despite the fact that I trust my doctor, have had many, many surgeries in the past, and have a support system to help with my recovery. Another thing I’m nervous about: what I’m going to eat afterward, when I’m dizzy and nauseous. On my meal plan, I don’t eat bread and I don’t eat many carbs. I remember previous recoveries where the only thing I wanted to eat was buttered toast. Will cucumbers, apple slices, hard boiled eggs, and tofu have the same calming effect on my stomach? If not, I suppose there is always steel cut oatmeal.

I’m having surgery to restore hearing in my left ear, a procedure I desperately want to work. There is only a 60-70% success rate, but my doctor thinks it’s worth it because I am “young” (her words!) and because of how successful the first ear surgeries I had, she is very optimistic this one will work too.

Have I mentioned I work in a library and teach? Hearing loss makes both jobs difficult because I can’t hear people speaking from 10 or 20 feet away in a large classroom, nor can I hear people speaking close to me if they are on my left side. The hearing loss is so profound that when I’m sleeping on my right side, with my deaf ear up, I can’t hear my kids or husband talking to me, no matter how close they are. If the bathtub is running, or the washing machine filling, I can’t hear doors opening, or the fall of footsteps coming towards me.

I’ve been told that for two weeks after surgery, I should not sneeze, exercise, fly, or lift anything heavy, including my 3-year old. Based on past experience, recovery from ear surgery is terrible: last time, I was so dizzy, I couldn’t even watch TV. I’m planning to listen to a lot of audiobooks and podcasts while I recover, so I welcome your recommendations!

So anyway, this is a long way of saying that I welcome your good thoughts and prayers on Monday. I hope this surgery is successful, and that I can calm these nervous thoughts.

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“Because Santa!”

Last night the boys tried on their Halloween costumes and when A noticed that P’s costume included nunchucks and a sword, he decided he needed a weapon of his own. Tasked with finding the sword that came with last year’s pirate costume, P came back with a magic wand. A’s enthusiasm at receiving this magic wand/sword was contagious. He flung the wand around as the boys ran around the house yelling, “Abracadabra, you’re a frog!” But P wasn’t having any of it. “No, you can’t turn me into a frog, I’m already a ninja,” he yelled back, and swung his plastic nunchucks in the air.

I almost booked a trip to Disneyland right then and there because my boys are ALL IN with make believe and magic. I’m already sad thinking about the day P realizes the tooth fairy is Mom and Dad.

A few months ago, P asked me if reindeers were real. Yes, I told him, remember when we saw the baby reindeer in person a few Christmases ago? “Nevermind,” he replied. “Of course they’re real. Because Santa!” Sound logic.

Sometimes P even uses his magnificent logic skills for more practical purposes. He brought home from school an optional worksheet and was struggling to sound out some of the more difficult words on the quiz section. He could read two of the multiple choice options, but not the third. Sound it out, I encouraged. “Actually I don’t need to, Mommy,” he told me. “The other two aren’t the right answers, so it has to be this one.” *Insert head desk emoji here.*

When my husband came home, I relayed the story to him. He beamed, so proud, and seemed to imagine P’s future to include high grades on standardized tests. I can get on board with that, because even though I was terrible at standardized tests, I still believe in magic.

Week in Review

My in-laws have been out of town on vacation and in the past week, we’ve realized we rely on them way more than we ever realized. They take P to school and pick him up every day, which is a huge help and we don’t have to send him to before or after-school care. It also means we can leave for work whenever we need to, which especially matters when you have court and a class to teach.

Anyway, we’ve survived with the help of friends and my mom, who arrived at our house at zero dark thirty on Thursday so G could make it to court an hour away. I was long gone by then as I leave the house at 5:45. V picked P up on Monday, he went to after-school care on Tuesday, and went home with the Fs on Wednesday and Thursday, and W took him to school twice. It seriously takes a village!

I took Friday off and enjoyed a coffee date with some friends and we took the kids to the park to enjoy what I assume is the last of the good weather this fall. A has given up napping (at least for me) and while I was exhausted after multiple nights up with him trying to get him to sleep in his toddler bed, we all managed to make it through the afternoon running errands and going to swimming lessons without naps.

Tonight we went to a Lego build event at our local Barnes & Noble. The boys loved it and I loved it because it was free.

I have a side job I’m doing for a couple weeks after the kids are asleep, so instead of reading or watching TV like I normally do on Saturday night, I’m planning to work for a few hours. But $ is $, and I have my eye on a Vitamix. (Hint, hint Santa!)

Weight loss update: -23 pounds! Yay me!

Eat to Live 5-Day Food Diary

What does a nutritarian eat? I decided to keep a food diary for a few days to give readers a sense of what my food choices entail, and the results were not surprising, at least to me. My food is very, very boring, and I repeat meals constantly. In the last few months, I’ve found favorite food combinations and have stuck to those, mostly because the meals listed below are not complicated, don’t have a lot of ingredients, and don’t take a lot of energy. However, some of these meals take over an hour to make, simply because of the time required to bake zucchini, tofu, sweet potatoes, etc. in the oven.

As you can see, I can’t live without baked tofu, no-oil peanut sauce, eggs, coconut water, frozen bananas, and quinoa.

Day One

  • Breakfast: coffee sweetened with honey; banana; hard boiled egg
  • Lunch: sweet potato and lentil soup; apple slices
  • Dinner: salad with mixed greens, cucumber, avocado, sunflower seeds, and craisins topped with pico de gallo; fried rice made with mushrooms, broccoli, tofu, peas, eggs, and leftover brown rice; and roasted sweet potato slices seasoned with no-salt seasoning, baked on parchment paper at 415 degrees for 45 minutes and flipped once

Day Two

  • Breakfast: coffee sweetened with honey and milk; hard boiled egg; fruit smoothie made with coconut water, frozen banana, and frozen berries
  • Lunch: salad with mixed greens, black and kidney beans, olives, topped with corn salsa; baked tofu topped with peanut sauce
  • Dinner: popcorn sprinkled with nutritional yeast; apples and peanut butter

Day Three

  • Breakfast: coffee sweetened with honey and milk
  • Brunch: Super Antioxidant Salad at Cheesecake Factory (dressing on the side)
  • Dinner: leftover tofu water sautéed with zucchini and mushrooms, served with quinoa and peanut sauce; salad with mixed greens, grapes, cucumber, Honeycrisp apples, and slivered almonds

Day Four

  • Breakfast: smoothie made with coconut water, frozen banana, frozen cherries, and frozen peaches; hard boiled egg
  • Lunch: salad with mixed greens, grapes, and cucumber; apple and peanut butter
  • Dinner: salad with mixed greens, grapes, cucumber, and slivered almonds; roasted sweet potato slices; baked tofu

Day Five

  • Breakfast: black coffee; smoothie made with coconut water, frozen banana, and frozen mixed berries
  • Lunch: Baja Fresh salad made with lettuce, tomatoes, and black beans (it also had small amounts of cheese and tortilla chip pieces, but since it was free at work, I didn’t care); carrots and hummus
  • Dinner: quinoa bowl with water sautéed mushrooms and broccoli, baked tofu, and peanut sauce; salad with butter lettuce, dates, cucumbers, and walnuts

If you’re looking for more creative meal ideas that conform (or mostly conform and easily modified) to the nutritarian food guidelines, check out Hello Nutritarian, Cookie & Kate, Run Fast Eat Slow, Minimalist Baker, the Conscientious Eater, Pinch of Yum, in pursuit of more, Vegan Food by Nina, Naturally Ella, and Love & Lemons.

 

Eat to Live Q & A

Happy Friday, everyone! Thanks to everyone who has congratulated me on my weight loss progress, and based on the follow-up questions I’ve received, a lot of you have the same questions about how I’m losing weight, so I thought it’d be helpful to post some answers here. And feel free to contact me if you have more questions after reading this post.

Q. What diet plan are you following? 

A. It’s called Eat to Live, a food plan also referred to as nutritarian. I’ve tried to stop referring to it as a diet, because to me that implies it’s temporary. I’m choosing to follow the food choices recommended in the Eat to Live book for the long term. However, I’ve made a few modifications that make the plan work for me. (See below.) If you don’t want to read the book, check out this great introduction to the plan at Hello Nutritarian’s blog. The reason I’ve stayed on the plan since since starting it in July is that I’ve lost more than 20 pounds and I have more energy now than I’ve had in a very long time.

Q. Do you make any modifications to the plan? 

A. Yes. For example, I eat eggs at least a few times per week . I hard boil eggs on Sunday and take them to work to eat for breakfast, and on the weekend, I have time to water sauté veggies and then scramble eggs (no added milk). Prior to Eat to Live, I would have added shredded cheese to the top but I’ve found that a little nutritional yeast is a good substitute. Some days, I have two servings of carbs instead of the recommended one. That’s often steel cut oatmeal for breakfast and brown rice or potatoes for dinner. Other days, I do much better about keeping my carb intake to just one serving.

Q. How do you satisfy your cravings? 

A. I’ve heard that it takes 21 days to overcome cravings and I call BS. I still crave salt and sugar! Last night I desperately wanted chips and salsa but I didn’t cave. Instead I had popcorn sprinkled with nutritional yeast. As far as sweets go, honey is a great sugar substitute, and fruit smoothies made with coconut water seem to satisfy my periodic ache for ice cream.

Q. What are pantry staples you recommend to get started? 

A. Nutritional yeast and coconut aminos, as well as walnuts, dried apricots, and dates. I know that sounds like a weird list, but here’s why I recommend each of them:

  • Nutritional yeast: while it has sodium in it, it’s not a significant amount and it’s a great substitute when you’re craving a cheesy/salty flavor. It’s extremely versatile, and I use it to make baked tofu at least three times a week.
  • Coconut aminos: this can be used as a soy sauce substitute as well as sprinkled on salad as dressing. I also use it in this peanut sauce recipe.
  • Walnuts: I add walnuts to salads and oatmeal. It’s a delicious crunch!
  • Dried Apricots: for whatever reason, this satisfies my sweet tooth, and make a delicious dessert.
  • Dates: Added to a salad, dates add texture and sweetness, eliminating the need for salad dressing.

Q. How do you stay on your plan while eating out? 

A. I’m not a purist, so if, for example, cheese makes it’s way into a salad, I don’t mind. Last night, we went out to eat, and I had a beet and quinoa salad that had feta cheese in it, as well as dressing that I’m sure had salt and sugar in it. It was delicious. Basically, I find something on the menu that is most in line with my meal plan parameters and go with that.

Q. How do you get over a weight loss plateau? 

A. I spent weeks at the same amount of weight loss and was so frustrated I almost gave up. But I kept to the plan, adding extra raw veggies to lunch and dinner, and I drank as much water as I could. Finally the plateau broke, but this week I seem to have reached another one. My plan is to double down on water and raw veggies again.

Do you all have any more questions? I’m happy to answer them! Have a fabulous weekend.

A Paw Patrol Birthday Party

It is a truth universally acknowledged that Paw Patrol was created to sell merchandise. But I am okay with that, because it’s not an annoying cartoon, and it’s one of the few my almost 3-year old and 6 1/2-year old can agree on.

So anyway. Paw Patrol. That’s what A wanted for a birthday theme, and thanks to a cheap pin-the-badge game I found on Amazon, along with some cute stuffed dogs, and a few balloons from the dollar store, it was easy to throw together. I order cupcakes from the same bakery every year, and this year they did an even more amazing job than usual.

Dinner was Costco pizza, apples, carrots, and salad, and after presents and food we took the kids to the park to enjoy the last of the afternoon sun.

And today my almost 3-year old took a 3 hour nap in his toddler bed while I did laundry, napped with the cat, and read while the spouse and P were at an air show. It’s been a good weekend. Here’s hoping this week is much better than the last.

Friday Update

1) My car wouldn’t start yesterday, even with a jump, so today it was towed to the mechanic. The problem is that they can’t replicate the problem and it started just fine for them, so tomorrow it’s back in our care. I just hope it doesn’t happen again at work.

2) Out garage door broke a month ago and we finally got it repaired yesterday. It cost so much money for a 5-minute repair job that I briefly wondered (again) if I had made the wrong career decision.

3) A slept through the night in his own bed last night. A true miracle. Too bad I woke up 45 minutes before my 5:09am alarm and couldn’t go back to sleep.

4) A’s birthday party is tomorrow. My house isn’t clean and presents aren’t wrapped yet, but it’s been a long week, which is why we’re just having pizza and cupcakes from a bakery at the party. And by we I mean everyone else. I’ll make baked tofu and a salad.

5) Today I surpassed the 20 pound mark of my weight loss journey. Truly remarkable, and from what I’ve read, the amount of weight loss that other people start noticing a change. I can feel it in my clothes, but I’m not ready to buy anything new yet. I still have many pounds left to reach my goal weight.

6) Have you heard about the book Never Unfriended? I’m thinking about starting a Friday night book club with some friends so I can discuss it with someone. But then I think about how the last thing I want to do on a Friday night is clean my house and wear anything but pjs, so that plan doesn’t really work. But it’s a thought. I just feel really disconnected from friends, both old and new.

Hope you all have a fantastic weekend.